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Hasn't happened often in my life. I've been lucky. Pretty much everything I ever wanted, I got. It happened, by luck or happenstance most of the time, by hard work and effort a couple of times, but whatever way...I got it.
I've been known to mock people who rail against fate and feel dejected by life because they failed. Often I've made fun of people for failing. How the hell can you fail? Life is wide open, keep trying till you get it.....the only excuse for failure is you didn't care enough to work hard enough to win.
Well profanity. I just failed. I did my best, worked hard, did everything possible...and it wasn't enough. How the hell do you losers deal with this feeling? I wanna kill something, hell kill everything and everyone......
I never really understood hatred till now. I'm so full of hate at the moment I could ignite concrete with a glance. I'm gonna embrace evil for a bit. If I have to feel like this, everyone I meet is gonna share in it if I have my way.
Not really, I'm just sad and profanity....but I wish I was really evil. I fail at that too it seems. Damn....
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A little time and you will feel better.
You can tell me to shut it now.
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Sorry Foxy. Thought I got rid of all the profanity before I posted. 
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sometimes you just gotta vent 
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I remember one instance vividly, trying out for a performance/talent show. I didn't make the cut. When I asked why (I wanted honest feedback on where I needed to improve vocally or whatever, and I told them that was why I wanted to know) they told me straight up,
"Oh no, there was nothing wrong with your tryout. You were fantastic! But we figured with a voice like yours, you get into/win stuff all the time and we wanted to give other people a chance to perform too."
The thing was, I never had gotten a chance to even try out for something before due to family situations. This was it. And I wanted to do it sooooo badly. I still resent that to this day.
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Yes, happiness lol
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I've never really given a god damn about most women in my life. I mean, I like them and all, but they all tend to blur together and don't really stand out as individuals. I loved my ex-wife more than I can ever express in words. I loved everything about her, even the stuff I hated, I loved.....
Been a loooong time since I met someone I really gave a damn about. I did just that recently. Floored me, I was in love 3 seconds after I started talking to her. I knew she really didn't like me, everything I am offended her, but I didn't care, I knew all I had to do was let her get to know me and she would change her mind...
Didn't happen. She got to know me, and started hating me for stuff I am instead of stuff she imagined I am....damn, that sucks.
20 years from now she will be in a place where she can appreciate what I am...but I'll be dead so it's no comfort to me to think about that. Don't ever get old. It sucks and you can't think "oh well, some day" when "some day" is long after you will have died.....god damnit.
I''ll be fine by Wednesday...till then, I'll be posting emo crap and feeling sorry for myself.
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Aww... c'mere you!
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I've never really given a god damn about most women in my life. I mean, I like them and all, but they all tend to blur together and don't really stand out as individuals. I loved my ex-wife more than I can ever express in words. I loved everything about her, even the stuff I hated, I loved.....
Been a loooong time since I met someone I really gave a damn about. I did just that recently. Floored me, I was in love 3 seconds after I started talking to her. I knew she really didn't like me, everything I am offended her, but I didn't care, I knew all I had to do was let her get to know me and she would change her mind...
Didn't happen. She got to know me, and started hating me for stuff I am instead of stuff she imagined I am....damn, that sucks.
20 years from now she will be in a place where she can appreciate what I am...but I'll be dead so it's no comfort to me to think about that. Don't ever get old. It sucks and you can't think "oh well, some day" when "some day" is long after you will have died.....god damnit.
I''ll be fine by Wednesday...till then, I'll be posting emo crap and feeling sorry for myself.
ugh, Ptilk, that sucks.  it just sounds so unfair.
try to keep busy and put it behind you...you know it will take some time. I'm sorry.
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I was living in a city where I wanted to go to school, but the university didn't accept me.
I also really really wanted this girl, but she wasn't interested in me.
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All hope is not lost.
I texted her a few hours ago saying, "Would you rather point out other peoples problems or help them solve them".
She just replied with, "You don't give up do you? I'll stop in around midnight, Have coffee ready and be sober, this might take a while".
Hell yeah.
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All hope is not lost.
I texted her a few hours ago saying, "Would you rather point out other peoples problems or help them solve them".
She just replied with, "You don't give up do you? I'll stop in around midnight, Have coffee ready and be sober, this might take a while".
Hell yeah.
go you! good luck!
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Ptilk posted:
All hope is not lost.
I texted her a few hours ago saying, "Would you rather point out other peoples problems or help them solve them".
She just replied with, "You don't give up do you? I'll stop in around midnight, Have coffee ready and be sober, this might take a while".
Hell yeah.
Do you really want to be solved? If yes, good luck sincerely! If no...yes this might take a while
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Ptilk posted:
. I knew she really didn't like me, everything I am offended her, but I didn't care, I knew all I had to do was let her get to know me and she would change her mind...
Didn't happen. She got to know me, and started hating me for stuff I am instead of stuff she imagined I am....damn, that sucks.
Yeah, I knew after reading this that your luck would turn around if you poked the hornet's nest again.
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the_tessa posted:
Ptilk posted:
. I knew she really didn't like me, everything I am offended her, but I didn't care, I knew all I had to do was let her get to know me and she would change her mind...
Didn't happen. She got to know me, and started hating me for stuff I am instead of stuff she imagined I am....damn, that sucks.
Yeah, I knew after reading this that your luck would turn around if you poked the hornet's nest again.
pretty sure it's not a hornet's nest he's hoping to poke.
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Also, with my first child, after two hours of labor (I was admitted at 3 cm dilated) I decided I had enough of this ridiculous "natural" labor and I REALLY REALLY REALLY wanted an epidural.
I didn't get one  But that was because I was already at 9 cm. Fifteen minutes later I had a baby. Would've taken at least that long for them to get the anesthesiologist there
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Ptilk posted:
All hope is not lost.
I texted her a few hours ago saying, "Would you rather point out other peoples problems or help them solve them".
She just replied with, "You don't give up do you? I'll stop in around midnight, Have coffee ready and be sober, this might take a while".
Hell yeah.
Oh man...Yeah what Gaev said up there. /\
Do you really wanna be 'SOLVED'?
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I've been fortunate enough to have a lot of the things I've wanted in life and even stumbled into some things I didn't know I wanted. I've also got three consecutive rejection letters from the same graduate program, been turned down for dinner in Paris, and been rejected for volunteer work.
If you're not failing at anything, you're not trying hard enough...
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I'm not sure what that means.
I like to think I'm a pretty decent person who isn't a total dick...but at times, I embrace my inner dickhead and rage for a bit....
I know I'm totally spoiled and have no clue about what life is like for most people. I've been blessed and lucky, and I have never had a problem with finances or money(not in the last 20 years or so anyway). I've made a lot more than I could ever spend. Been retired since my early 40's, I don't work, and wont work again. Too much bullcrap involved.
She isn't a child, turns 29 next week. Been married, divorced for a couple of months, owns her company, makes decent bank, nothing to covet but enough to be impressed by....
I am gonna make this chick love me, or die trying......
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It all boils down to are you willing to change for something you care about.
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Expect a lot of crap with the young ones like that
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Time is the only thing that's ever worked, for me.
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"and be sober"
hahaha 
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jesus christ man, read your own posts. you seem delusional. you need a reality check. why are you only going after one girl half your age that doesn't even sound like she's even pretending to be interested? and why is a girl telling you to be sober?
i honestly feel the estrogen seeping through your posts. man up.
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wait, you are retired and dating a woman in her 20's?
1st world problems
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If you could date any woman that ever lived, would you date an 80 year old or a 20 year old?
I like maturity, have no problem with experience, but realize that most women worth the effort are either engaged or married by the time they are 30, so finding a woman of any age who isn't shackled to a man is a bonus.
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FYC is just jealous.
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That's life...
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Good and evil is more a matter of style than morality.
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I cleaned my kitchen and made a fresh pot of coffee......bet she never shows up.
God damnit.
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Drink the entire pot, wait until 4:30 a.m. and then go over to her place and pee on her shoes.
I mean, you'll be up.
Rho
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Is she looking for you to blow 0.00 in a breathalyzer? If not, a little Bailey's in your coffee can't hurt...
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Ptilk posted:
...How the hell do you losers deal with this feeling?
Way to reach out dude
Just busting chops
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yes right now I really want the legendary in WoW Ive been working towards for a few months now...I just cant seem to keep the groups together and going each week Some might think its silly but when you devote a few weeks towards one thing even if its in a video game it is still important. As far as other real life stuff...money has never been that important to me. I grew up "poor" but always had all my needs met. As Ive gotten older I have all my needs met and most of my wants so I cant complain. Im very happy in love with my boyfriend so thats all worked out as well. I dont have very many needs or wants. I like to live simply most of the time so when something does come along that I really want I have no problem usually getting it. People tend to live too complicated lives. They start to feel that what are actually wants in their lives are actually needs which skews where they put the emphasis in their lives in the wrong direction.
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